Jhene Aiko’s album “Trip” is an amazing album. The album is centered around love, grief, addiction, loss, and a journey to self discovery. Jhene Aiko’s brother died in 2012, and she has been battling to become one with herself after this tough loss. In the album Trip, Aiko takes multiple trips in an attempt to fill the void of her brother and find herself once again. One of my favorite songs on the album is called Jukai. In this song Jhene says, “If anyone should try and find me, just know I’m where I wanna be. I left the house all clean and tidy, don’t come searching please.”
Sometimes, I feel the same way. I want to escape from the daily routine of going to work, coming home, and getting ready to do it all over again. I want to escape from sitting at home on the weekends figuring out ways of getting to where I want to be in life. I want to be able to put all of life’s responsibilities on hold as I fully find myself all over again. I want to explore the world, and turn my phone off without anyone searching for me. I just want to be FREE.
Free from working for someone else.
Free from responsibilities.
Free from things that no longer serve purpose in my life.
Free from critics.
Free from disappointments.
Free from others expectations.
Free from it all.
However, there is no true blue print on how to get there. It all depends on the individual. It then becomes a battle in the mind on if I should take a leap of faith and risk it all to get to where I want to be, or should I just sit back and be content on where I am today. This can be very scary knowing that deep down I want to risk it all and go after everything I dream of. When I think about risking it all, I think about losing people I care about, not being able to return to my job if things don’t work out, losing the respect of others, losing my independence, etc.
This is where my spirituality come in to play. I have to take a risk and have faith that it will all work out in the long run. I have to believe that I will be where I need to be once I take the first step. I don’t know what tomorrow may hold, but I know I have to take a step forward and walk by faith and not by sight.