“So you really gon do this to me after all that we’ve been thru? This year has been one of the hardest years of my life. How can u just throw everything away like that?…..”
It was this time last year. I remember like it was yesterday. I was broken, lost, and had no sense of direction. I had to make a decision to finally let go of the hurt of losing my best friend. I woke up on Christmas Eve and went to the beach at around 8 or 9 AM. I had my Beat headphones with me and I sat on the beach listening to music and writing. I wrote down all my thoughts and feelings in that very moment. I reminisced on our history and the things we once shared. It was the longest note in my notepad on my iPhone. I then emailed it to her knowing that she probably would never open it. That was how I got my closure in the situation.
In retrospect, this was one of the best things I have ever done. It allowed me to begin closing that chapter of my life and moving on to another chapter in life. 2017 has been the best year of my life so far. I can honestly say this. I was able to redefine myself after hitting ground 0. I have made a great amount of changes in which I am proud of. I feel like a brand new person with a brand new mindset. I no longer want to be associated with the thoughts of what used to be. I know that 2018 will get me to where I need to be on an even higher level.
I am now about to get up and head to the beach and reflect on life and how much I’ve grown within the past 365 days.
Click to read A Dedication To My Best friend Turned First Love
