So, the other day I was listening to music and an old reggae song comes on. It’s a song by Buju Banton called “Wanna be loved”. This song was released in 1995. In the song he sings the words, “I wanna be loved not for who you think I am, not who you want me to be, could you love me for me?” This is a feeling that everyone in life want to experience. No matter who you are or where you come from, everyone wants to be accepted and understood by at least one person in the world. Life is too complicated and stressful to face the world alone.
As I was listening to this song, I started writing and reflecting on my life. While reflecting, I came to the conclusion that throughout my life I altered my way of thinking, believing, and living for the benefits of others who couldn’t seem to understand me. This is something that can be so detrimental to our lives because it causes so much confusion and as a result, you eventually lose your identity and who you are as a person.
I want to be understood without explaining. I want to be understood without anyone trying to alter my way of thinking or believing. I believe that throughout my life I was lost. When I did things my way, I let criticism and negative comments deter me from who I truly was. I then begin to do things in a way that satisfied and made others happy, while I wasn’t truly happy myself. I did this so much that I eventually lost who I truly was.
I’ve been told so many negative things about way of thinking and believing that I didn’t even know who I was anymore. Now that I isolate myself from others and stay to myself all the time, I began finding pieces myself that i never even knew existed. I now have a better understanding of who I am and where I want to go in life. I thought I was a mean guy. A guy who was always angry and rude to people. However, that really isn’t who I am. I am a man who wants happiness for everyone. A man who wants to help others as much I can. I didn’t know these things earlier in life because I began hating the fact that people didn’t accept me for who I was so it made me hateful towards people. It made me rude slick and plain out mean. However, when I am alone I know that isn’t me.
Take some time alone to figure out who you truly are and make your own life decisions. Don’t let others knock you off the path that the universe intend you to travel.