Been a while since I last blogged. I’ve honestly been writing a lot lately, believe it or not. I’m just trying to find the courage to be open and share it with the world once again. Nothing bad at all. Just been doing a lot of digging deep within my core and pulling out some things that gave me new perspectives on life.
One thing that I’ve been doing lately is trying to get back to how I once felt a few years ago. When I felt fully connected to the world around me. Over the past years I lost that feeling. I felt like I was traveling down a dark path. A path in which I questioned everything; my decisions, my relationships, my career, and even my faith.
Sometimes I ask myself, how many setbacks does a person need before they finally move forward without any roadblocks? Thankfully, I’m beginning to find MY happiness once again.
The other day, I started working part-time at a school that I previously worked at back in 2015. As I walked outside on the basketball court, I felt a rush of energy run through my body (seriously). It wasn’t a bad feeling at all. It was a feeling that put me in a mental space to write. I immediately took out my phone and began typing these words:
Nostalgia. The good ole days, when life was so simple. The days when adult responsibilities didn’t fill up my daily schedule. When college financial aid and a part time job was enough to get by. When fast food meals was a part of my daily routine. When my weekends consisted of late night turn ups and not a time to recuperate from a busy work week. When WWE, 2K, and the sims used to excite me.
Just by being on the basketball court, gave me a sense of peace. I instantly felt connected to the world in that moment.
On a another note, I find myself listening to Drake more. Just last month, Drake released a compilation of his old mixtape songs on Apple Music, songs that I listened to during my younger 20’s.
Anyone who truly knows me knows that Drake is my favorite artist of all time. I remember when I was fresh out of high school, I used to listen to his music all the time to the point that my friends used to say that I’m in my feelings all the time. I remember my brother always played Drake as well and we used to have debates on his music.
Listening to his music helps me feel connected as well. It gives me a sense of peace. It makes me feel how I felt a few years ago.
Theres so much more that I can write and share, but I’ll stop here for now. I’m just looking forward to what God has in store for me as I continue to feel connected to the deeper world around me.