As we get closer to 2020, I’d like to take a moment to thank God for my 2019. This year has been filled with many ups, downs, twists, and turns. Literally!
It started with me changing my image and trying to go for a more “grown” look. I went to the barber and had him shave my head bald, but not my beard. He was stunned since he always recommended it, but I’d decline. As he shaved my head, I was nervous to look up and into the mirror. When it was all set and done, I finally built the courage to take a look, I liked it! As soon as I got in my car, I began taking pictures and sending them to different people. This was a great start to a new year and a new beginning.
A few weeks later, I went on a group trip to DC. On this trip, I visited the African American museum, did some clubbing, bar hopping, and exploring of the city. I appreciate the experience I had in DC. Not only was it a good trip, but it also taught me a valuable lesson about friendship: “Your vibe is your tribe”.
I’m very big on energies and vibes. We as in humans can honestly feel when something doesn’t feel right. It’s just a feeling we get in our gut. While in DC, I had to walk away from a friendship that I didn’t feel a positive vibe from. It wasn’t an easy decision for me to make, since I always question myself on if I’m being a mean person. But, I had to do what was conducive to my spiritual growth.
In April, I took a trip to Los Angeles for my birthday. I love sightseeing. The Santa Monica Pier, Venice Beach, and Hollywood Walk of Fame were all appealing. I’d love to go back when the weather is warmer. It was about 60 degrees the whole weekend.
Two weeks later, I traveled to Cancun, which was a well needed trip. A trip of pure relaxation. Cancun is beautiful. The white sand and blue water alone was a sight to see. I took some time to sit on the beach and write all of the thoughts that were coming to my head. One night, I ended up falling asleep on the balcony of my hotel room because of the nice breeze and sound of the ocean. I don’t think I’ve ever felt more at peace in my life.
Outside of traveling, I continued to spend time alone to get a better understanding of who I am as a person.
Many times, people get so wrapped up in the world and never take time to sit down, reflect, mediate, or get some mental clarity on things. This is something that I make a priority and that’s what I did a lot of in 2019. Almost every weekend, I took time to dig deep within myself to understand myself better. I analyzed past situations and how they affect me today, as well as my values and beliefs. One of the greatest things I did was jot down traits of the person I want to become. By doing this, it helped me paint an image in my head and I started to put forth an effort in becoming this person.
I know it won’t happen overnight. I also know that it’s going to take a lot of dedication and hard work just to get there. But one thing I won’t do, is give up on it. So as I prepare for 2020, I will continue to push forward.
All in all, 2019 has been a great year!