It took quite a while to get back on track after veering off so many times. There were times that I’d let go of unhealthy attachments, but still found a false reason to latch on even tighter. There were times that I’d run back to the comfortability of the past because the unknown seemed too terrifying. There were times that I’d try forcing a connection knowing that I felt nothing at all deep down.
All of those things were distractions that caused me to lose sight of my true identity, and my purpose of living. Now that I’ve gotten rid of these distractions, I can finally say that I’m back on track with a profound vision of who I am; a strong and confident man with a full life of happiness ahead.
I kind of forgotten that over the past few years. I was tainted by many situations and how they played out to find myself in an identity crisis. I’ve questioned different aspects of myself, wondering if certain traits that I’d develop throughout the years is really a part of who I am. There were times that I sacrificed my comfortability for the happiness and appeasement of others, while deep down I felt lost and stuck. As a result, I slowly lost some of the most important pieces of myself.
It took some true courage on my end to finally realize and admit these things to myself. I had to give myself an honesty inventory related to my life. I had to start admitting things to myself for what they truly are. It wasn’t easy at all. As a matter of fact, it was extremely painful to be brutally honest with myself. But, it’s definitely something that I had to do to get closer to my purpose and finding out who I truly am.
After taking this tough step forward, I can honestly say my vision has become clearer. I can now see the man that I want to become. I have a stronger sense of self. I am aware of the different avenues that I want to travel in life. I have something to truly look forward to and live for.
This is definitely not something that happens over night. It can take a great amount of time to get to this level. But, there’s definitely light at the end of the tunnel. In order to see this light, you have to keep trusting and believing, while staying true to who you are.
Don’t give up on yourself.
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