I finally feel a sense of connection after disconnecting from the many things that no longer served me.
I feel connected to the breeze that’s blowing. I feel connected to the waves rushing against the sand. I feel connected to the sounds of the waves as they flow towards me. I feel connected to the birds as they are flying and chirping over the ocean. I feel connected to the sun as it glistens on the ocean. I even feel connected to the people around me in some way even though I don’t know them personally.
I’ve always heard the saying that sometimes you must disconnect in order to reconnect. I finally understand what that means. The disconnecting that I did was definitely needed. I learned so much about myself. I was able to be more in tune with who I am and discover the lost pieces of myself that were buried beneath heartbreak, loss, and toxicity. I can finally feel and experience a sense of peace and belonging. I feel whole and confident in the man that I am today.
I’m truly grateful to have found this moment. A moment in which I was able to put everything around me on pause and reflect on how far I’ve come. I was able to just be still and appreciate the simplicities of life such as the sound of the ocean and wind while standing here on this beach.
From this day forward, I promise to never let anything from the outside change who I am on the inside. I promise to not let anything or anyone affect how I feel about myself. Only I hold the power to affect how I feel about myself. I am proud of the man that I’m becoming. I have mastered the art in walking by faith and not by sight.
I’ve said this before and I’m saying it again, there’s no turning back. I’ve come so far over the past few years. I was once lost and had no sense of direction on where to go and who to turn to. I found myself losing faith in self, people, and relationships. My faith in God dwindled day in and day out. But thankfully, I persevered and I’m here to share my journey.
To whoever reading this, I want you to know that changes can and will happen. Even when it doesn’t seem promising things do get better. You have to be strong both mentally and spiritually. You have to be courageous enough to let go of unhealthy attachments. You have to trust and believe that there is a better life out there for you. Never ever sell yourself short of what you deserve. It may take a while to get there but trust me when I say, the journey is definitely worth it.
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