Did I take steps backwards again, or is this just a part of my journey? It feels like I’m walking in reverse. It feels like all the progress that I’ve been making is slowly decreasing. I know exactly where I need to go in life, but every time I make an attempt, I get pushed right back.
I’m starting to think that maybe it’s not meant for me to move forward right now. It could be that God still wants me to face this battle where I am now, so that my strength is increased for what’s next to come. Maybe moving forward is me walking away from my purpose, which is something that I recently found. This is probably why God has me right here where I am today.
In my heart, I know exactly what I want my life to look and feel like, but maybe God feels like I’m not ready for it. This is something that I have to accept and understand. I can’t use this as an excuse to not stay focused. I can’t use this as an excuse to keep moving backwards. I have to trust and believe that I am where I need to be at this point in my life.
One thing that I can say for sure is that as hard as things may be, I’m grateful for it all. I’m grateful that I am no longer tough on myself. I’m grateful for being able to truly understand that making a change, and trying to embrace it isn’t something that comes easy. I’m grateful for the strength that I’ve been gaining, and all of the lessons I’ve been aquiring while fighting this battle.
When challenges come your way, face them head on. Don’t let them stop you from becoming who you are meant to be. Stay true to who you are and trust that what’s yours will always be yours. Everything is working in your favor.
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