Is faith really just enough to get through life? Can I really manifest everything that I want by just believing what I really can’t see? Is this even a logical thing to do, considering the fact that you have to be strategic in life?
This is definitely one of my biggest challenges in all of my years of existing. I’m battling with whether I should continue believing, or should I just throw in the towel on faith itself. It’s like no matter how much I try to believe that things will work in my favor, it seems as if nothing is changing. Could it be a lack of patience that I’m experiencing within myself? But then again, how much patience is required when testing your faith?
I wish I had a magic wand so that I can magically change certain circumstances. At least I’d be farther along on my journey than I am now. I know that I should be falling in love with the process and focus less on the end goal or the destination, but how could I fall in love with something that has so many dead ends and potholes? This seems a bit ludicrous to me.
On the bright side of things, I’m still grateful for where I am today. Although I want more, I’m very fortunate to be where I am. There’s still a lot that I have to be appreciative of. I just really want so much more from life. And the more that I want comes with an extreme amount of strength, courage, and perseverance. Maybe I need to continue to PUSH. Not the literal “push”, but the “Pray Until Something Happens” push. Who knows? I’m just hoping that I’ll live long enough to feel exactly how I want to feel in this lifetime.